Last week was a really rough week for me as a parent. Grant decided to challenge me on multiple levels. To the point where I have question myself as a parent. I really just wanted to throw in the towel, and say I give up and put up my white flags. But you can't just give up on your child, something needs to happen to realize that you do in fact have control of the situation to make it better.
Last week, just to list the numerous things that happen, the stuff that makes you wonder "What were you doing that you let these things even happen Megan?" But when you are juggling two kids, (in which one of those kids challenges you on a daily basis) trying to get out the door, and be a full time working mother, you start to lose control. The week started with Grant following down the stairs at my uncle's house. He slipped on his socks and flew down the steps like superman with his arms out. He got a huge goose egg on his head, which surprisingly went away the next day and it was just a bruise. The next day Grant was playing around with coins. I took them away, but didn't put them away in a great place. Grant ended up getting a hold of them, and all the sudden I hear coughing and Grant says, "Oh oo, I ate a penny." Yes he ate a penny. Which almost two weeks later he still hasn't past the penny through completely. We ended up getting an x-ray to find out that it is in his large intestine. If it doesn't past by Monday, we have to get another x-ray. So that has been an adventure in itself, trying to find a penny in Grant's diaper. So gross. Anyways Grant ended up pushing Holly down the steps TWICE (which we have a tri-level, so its only six steps thank God). It happened on Wednesday and then it happened on Friday. Both times when I was getting ready for work. I was so upset with him the second time, that I couldn't even look at him in the following half hour. It was the worst feeling having to go to work, right after your child pushes your other child down the steps. It's hard to resolve the problem when you are already running late for a meeting. Luckily Holly is very resilient and ended up being fine. Also during that week, Grant came out of nowhere a bit me, and put a bad bruise on me. There are a lot of pushing Holly that week and knocking her over, he also dumped a whole box of cereal on the floor, when I was trying to give him some of it for breakfast. I feel like he did some other really bad things too, but now I have blocked them from my memory. Last week was just a REALLY rough week. I felt defeated. I felt like a failure. Like I am not doing something right to have a child who is CONSTANTLY testing me. So after a frustrating week, I decided to get a book called "Setting the Limits with your Strong Willed Child." I am usually not one to resort to books when I need help. But after the week I had, I felt very desperate. So I did my research and looked at some various books, and decided to get the book by Robert McKenzie.
I am really excited to read this book, and have learn quite a bit already. I still have a lot of the book to read. But as I read each page, it reaffirms the fact that yes my child is extremely strong willed. One thing that terrifies me is that I could have two strong willed children. I hope for my sanity that Holly is not strong willed as well. Though I sometimes worry, especially since she has been modeling some of Grant's negative behavior in the last week.
I really hope this book helps, considering I feel defeated as a parent, and just not sure what to do. Grant loves to press my buttons and test me daily. It will be interesting to see the methods that I will need to implement. So far the message has been that consistency is very important.
So we will see. This week hasn't been as bad as last. I think Grant being coupe up in the house isn't helping either. I am ready for it to be warm outside! Grant really isn't a terrible child that I am making him out to sound like. But I think he is too smart for his own good, and now that he can verbalize more, he definitely knows how to press all the right buttons.
I'll definitely be sharing more of this book in future entries as I continue to read this book.
Happy Saturday! And on a different note, I can't believe my little Grant will be 3 in two weeks. Wow, where does the time go?