Saturday, June 29, 2013

Nothing but Pains

I'm not even half way through my pregnancy (ok well one more week until I am halfway through my pregnancy) and I feel like this pregnancy has already put me through quite a bit of pain and agony. I'm pretty much going to whine about of all this (not that it will make it feel any better) , so if you don't want to hear me whine and hear me feel sorry for myself, then you may want to skip reading this blog entry. I'm starting to think that maybe my body was not designed for pregnancy. At one point in my life  (before I even met Matt) I wanted to have 4-5 kids but I will actually say I will be happy with just two. I don't think I could put up with another 2-3 pregnancies of hell. Ok, when I was pregnant with Grant, it actually wasn't terrible. Most of the dramatics happened in the third trimester with the whole pre-e thing. It actually wasn't a bad pregnancy. But I'm only 19 weeks, and I feel like this baby has already giving me a run for their money. I really hope this is not a foreshadowing of how this baby will be when he or she is born.

So what kind of pains have I had so far you might ask? Well it first started with having aversions to chocolate. Which is the saddest thing to me ever. Right now Matt has a BIG (and I mean big) bag of peanut M&Ms that he got from Sam's Club.  Usually if something like that was in the house, it probably would have been gone within a couple of days. But with this pregnancy, I have not even eaten a single M&M nor do I have a desire to. Not only can't I eat chocolate, but I also got a dairy intolerance. Eating ice cream is no longer a thing I can do unless I want to double in pain and be on the toilet for the entire night. This week, I was overzealous and thought maybe I got over this whole dairy thing. To try out and see, I ate ice cream on Monday. I felt great, I ended up not having any issue. So I ate ice cream on Tuesday. Again I felt great. So I ate ice cream again on Wednesday, and then that's when it hit me like a tidal wave, the terrible IBS. Needless to say, I should have no eaten ice cream THREE days in a row. But I foolishly thought maybe I would be ok if I did. WRONG.

The other thing I got is their weird umbilical hernia. After I had Grant, I started getting this weird thing sticking outside around my belly button area. Now that I am pregnant, and I've gotten pregnant, it's gotten worse. When I wear shirts, it almost looks like my belly button has popped out and you can see it through my shirt. But it is not my belly button. It's my weird umbilical hernia. Which the doctor told me I have to watch out and make sure bowel doesn't get stuck where the hernia is. If it does, I'll experience extreme pain, and would have to get an emergency surgery. Hope it doesn't lead to that. I will say it does hurt sometimes, and I'll get a random shooting pain in that area. The doctor said after I have this baby, I would have to get a general surrey to fix it. FUN! Not..

Lastly, my new pain started last week. I started getting this really bad pelvic pain, where it would stop me in my tracks from walking. It literally feels like someone is taking my pelvic bone and trying to fold it in half. I've been walking funny, holding my belly, and turning my legs outward, just so it doesn't hurt so much. Ended up going to the doctor yesterday, to find out its common with your second pregnancy to experience lower back, and pelvic pain. So now I have to see a chiropractor, go to psychical therapy and get a pregnancy belt. Hopefully doing those things will make the pain subside. But it could get worse as I progress in my pregnancy. Yay! Not.. I did get a pregnancy belt today, and I must say I've already noticed a difference! I barely felt any pain with walking. With this whole thing I just didn't realize I could experience pain like this already so early in the pregnancy. The lower back pain and everything feels like it did towards the end of my pregnancy, but worse.

I'm making pregnancy sound terrible. And maybe my complaints seem petty compared to what other pregnant women have experienced. I just can't believe I still have 21 weeks of pregnancy left, and I feel like I'm 30 weeks already. My body is so sore. Most of this is probably just because it's my second pregnancy. But it's making me miserable already. And the summer heat doesn't help any.

On a the flip side, this baby loves to move! He seems way more active than Grant was around this time of the pregnancy. (Again referring to the baby as a boy, as if I already know, when I do not) And Grant moved quite a bit. This baby loves to move so much during the day.

I know I should just count my blessings, it could be worse. Hopefully this pregnancy won't add to the terribleness for the remaining 21 weeks.

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Girl or Boy?

I'm excited that I will get to find out whether I'm having a girl or boy a month from today on July 15th! I really think I am having a boy again. I've been having strong feelings of a boy and I find myself constantly referring to this baby in the uterus as a "he". I really want a girl, especially since we only plan to have two kids regardless. Maybe my strong feelings of a boy is mentally preparing me if we do have another boy. And I will say I'm coming to terms with it, and wouldn't be extremely disappointed if I did have another boy. Matt keeps telling me he rather have another boy because it works out better logistically. lol. He already have the clothes for a boy, and they can share the same room longer which means we wouldn't have to give up the study for a bedroom. And plus Grant will have a fun little brother that he can be best buds with! But there is a longing inside of me for a girl. I grew up with two brothers, always wishing I had a sister and got to share that sisterly bond. I value the relationship I have with my mother, and I would love to have the same kind of relationship if I were to have a girl. I think a relationship with a mother and daughter is quite different than a relationship with a mother and son. (At least when they are adults) Mothers and daughters have a very close bond. Not saying that sons and mothers don't. But it's different. So I would love to have a little girl to dress up and to have a close bond with. Regardless I'll be happy if I have a boy instead, which is really that I think I'm having anyways. I'll be actually shock if I find out I am having a girl. So we'll see.

So what are the differences and similarities of this pregnancy verses the last? I know each pregnancy is completely different, and you really gender doesn't make a pregnancy different. I could be having another boy and still have a completely different pregnancy than I did with Grant, but it's still fun to compare.

  • With Grant I loved ice cream, french fries, and cheese. This time, I crave more veggies. I'm obsessed with Mexican food. I literally have a burrito bowl once a week. And I can't have ice cream or very much diary this time. I found out it makes me feel ill and I have an intolerance to dairy. Plus I dislike chocolate this time. Which is the saddest thing ever. But with this pregnancy I'm craving sour/sweet things like sour patch kids, and sweetish fish, and cookies. With Grant those things tasted funny to me and I didn't like eating very much candy.
  • Heartbeat with Grant has been always consistantly 140. This baby was around 170 the first couple times, but the last appointment it was around 145. 
  • My new obession this pregnancy is regular Coke, I've been craving coke, which is weird considering I don't really don't like coke very much.
  • This is kind of a gross observation (ok maybe not that gross) but with Grant my arm pit hairs were oddly a lot darker than usually. Not sure if it was the extra testorone or what. But it was really weird. They were almost black. This time I don't have an abnormal armpit hair color.
  • I'm EXTREMELY hormonal this pregnancy. I think 10 times worse than last time. I like to think I'm having a girl for this reason, considering I feel like I have extra rage. I can't tell you how many snappy moments I've had with people I work with. Plus I seem to cry easily this pregnancy too, which I hate because I don't like crying in front of people. 
  • Chinese Gender Predictor said I was having a boy with Grant. This time it says I'm having a girl. So we'll see! 
  • I haven't gained any weight so far with this pregnancy! And I'm 17 weeks. With Grant I've already gained 15 pounds at this point. 
  • I feel like my belly looks higher than last time. With Grant my belly was super low. I can still wear some of my pre-pregnancy pants this time!

  • The level of morning sickness was about the same. But I got morning sickness a lot earlier this time around.
  • My acne was non-existent with Grant and this pregnancy as well.
  • Allergies pretty much went away with Grant and so far in this pregnancy as well. 

Lastly here is a comparison picture of both pregnancy. The one on the left is when I was pregnant with Grant at 17 weeks. I don't have a picture of me when I was 16 weeks. But as you can see I'm a lot bigger at 16 weeks than I was at 17 weeks with Grant.  Though I've notice my face doesn't look as fat this time. So that's good!

This time around I look a lot bigger and showing earlier! I already look like I'm 6 months pregnant

So I'm not sure what the signs and midwives tales are pointing too. I still think I'm having a boy, so we'll see what July 15th tells us!

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Parenting Picture of the Week- Grandma love

Sorry I've not done Parenting Picture of the Week for the last three weeks. I've been super crazy busy! But here is this week's Parenting Picture of the Week:

Grant loves his Grandma

Yesterday we went to Leah's second birthday party at the park. Grant had so much fun playing with his cousins and hanging out with Grandma and Grandpa. When we first got there it was raining, but when the rain finally stopped, it got sunny again, and we got to enjoy the rest of the day! It was nice to spend time with the family!

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Surviving a year as a working mother

I'm a month late on this, but I just realize recently that I have survived an entire year (plus one month) of working since I went back from maternity leave. I can't believe it's been a year already, and that I have survive a year as a working mother! I know many people in my inner circle thought I wouldn't make it as a working mother or end up quitting and be a stay at home mom. But I proved them wrong! I'm not going to lie, it was really hard at first to leave Grant when I went back to work.But once I got into the grove, it became second nature to me.

I will say I love working and having adult interaction during the day. When I come home from work I always look forward to seeing Grant's adorable face. Especially on the tough days at work that make me want to scream. I live for the weekends now, more then ever. It's so nice to have time to spend with Grant.

How does a typical day go in my world, you might ask? Well Grant usually wakes up between 6:30 to 7:00 am everyday. (Unfortunately weekends too, sleeping in is SO overrated!) I usually feed Grant breakfast right away. Sometimes we sit down and watch the morning news first. And Marco comes over and sits on my lap, and Grant pets him, and Marco actually lets him. (Which won't happen at any other part of the day) Then I start to get ready. Sometimes mornings are a fight, and Grant thinks he has to be held while I get ready. Sometimes he is perfectly content just playing with his toys in his room. It just really depends on what kind of mood he is in that day. Most days he keeps entertained by taking everything out of the drawers in the bathroom, while I put my contacts in and do my hair. Because of this I have found multiple surprises. One day when I came home from work, I went to use the bathroom, I was about ready to flush the toilet when I realize my toothbrush was in it. Needless to say, that toothbrush went in the trash. Grant must had put it in the toilet earlier in the morning, and I didn't realize it. And then some days, I'll be frantically searching for the toothpaste, or my hairbrush to find it in a completely random place. The other day I found our toothpaste on the changing table. Not sure how it ended up there. It keeps him entertained, at the expense of losing the order of where things belong. Oh well. And then when I got to put my makeup, at this point I can't do it at the mirror in the bathroom, because he starts getting fussy, and has had enough "rearranging" of our bathroom items. So I get my makeup bag, sit on the floor, and let him play with my makeup brushes while I put my makeup on. He has on a few occasions dug his fingernails into my eyeshadow. It has some nice big chunks out of it. But it entertains him, and I actually can get ready. Since at this point Matt has already left for work. So I'm on my own getting ready with an active toddler. Then after I get ready, we go downstairs to feed Marco. When I go to feed Marco, I've learned to refill the water dish and food bowl at the same time. Because Grant will either dump the water out, or try to sit in the water, and make a big mess. After that, I put Grant in his car seat, and take him to the sitter's house. He'll get all serious and look angry, and give me this look "Mommy why are you going to leave me here?" When I say "Mommy is going Bye-Bye" He now has figured out what that means, and he starts bawling his head off. I sneak out in a mad dash, and the sitter says he usually is fine and happy as can be within 5-10 minutes. He still pretty much cries everyday that I leave. Eventually I hope we get to the point where he just goes along his merry way and plays, when I leave. Hopefully that day will come.

My work keeps me so busy, that luckily I don't freak out and worry about what Grant is doing during the day. I know he is in good care, and tell myself not to worry to much. And being so busy, I don't even have time to think about it. Matt usually picks up Grant from the sitter, when I come home, he is usually excited to see me. And he then becomes really clingy. Making dinner is literally impossible. Matt has to entertain him by taking him outside, or I give him a spoon and bowl to make some noise. It seems to entertain him. After dinner, we go outside, and take a walk around the neighborhood. Then Grant might play some more. He likes to rotate rocks from one side of our yard to the other. Then around 8:00-8:30 Grant goes to sleep. I use the that time to have some me time! That's when I like to waste time on Facebook and blog. Then it starts all over again!

I don't mind being a working mother at all. I got a routine done to a science, and it works. I'm not sure how its going to work when this baby comes. I'm not going to lie, it scares me a little. Grant is enough work to juggle while getting ready for work. I can only imagine how it will be with TWO. We'll see how that goes. I really am proud of myself that I have been able to juggle motherhood, work and being a wife. It's not easy, but it is possible! Yay for surviving a year as a working mom! Hopefully I can survive the next year, when baby number two comes!

Ready to start the work day! Grant not so much.